Monday, December 11, 2006

Finally blogging again. I just finished my youth camp last friday and i'm still in terrible need of sleep. Kinda glad lessons got cancelled today, i got some sleep back (yay!).

With all the running around and going back for a tiring ICA, i hardly stopped to think or breath. All spare time was spent on writing or preparing something for my mortal in camp. Which in turn made me feel sad as my angel didn't write anything till wed (he only wrote a single lone note, by the way, plus a packet of sweets). I had hoped to get more encouragement, more notes, more everything.

I did learn something, that is to trust the Lord. Indeed He has planned everything as he best sees fit. But sometimes one just can help but worry about things they can't control.

I wish God had made some things clearer. He had touched me, among the many others. But my questions are still not answered. Do i not see the answer, or does God want me to wait? How long till i understand?

Here Am I - Forerunner
Standing before You, no pretenses
I can be still now, waiting for Your voice
Never have i known such compassion
I see that true love doesn't have a choice
Then all the world just slips away
As i feel my broken heart begin to say

Here am i, with nothing much to offer
Just a child who'd serve You willingly
So if You want to show Your strength through such weakness
Here am i, send me

Looking around i see so many,
Trying their best to somehow make it through
So many times i've chosen silence
Knowing inside how much they needed You
They need to know, they need to see
That Jesus paid the price to set them free

Here am i, with nothing much to offer
Just a child who'd serve You willingly
So if You want to show Your strength through such weakness
Here am i, send me.